By Dianna Hobbs
I would love to say I took it well and immediately began speaking the word of God over the situation. But that wouldn’t be true. I lost it. Broke down. Boo-hooed. Went into the full-on ugly cry. I nearly beat the messenger—my sister Shavette—who was the bearer of bad tidings.
“Don’t tell me that!” I yelled.
I thought it was the end. It was one of the worst reactions I’ve ever had to anything. The day I learned my mother was diagnosed with breast cancer, I crumbled. I got to thinking about it today because October is Breast Cancer Awareness Month.
“Please tell me God wouldn’t take my mother away from me,” I sobbed, pushing my sibling, who hugged me and did her best to calm me. She, my other sister Shante, and my other sister Laquinte, who joined us by phone from Atlanta, had to talk me down.
I have no idea why I was shoving and resisting.
You never know how you’ll respond to life’s challenges until you’re in the thick of things.
Perhaps I was partially out of my mind anyway. Doctors had prescribed some strong medication to help me through a tough season of illness I was enduring. Complications from surgery earlier that year left me in a bad way. The year 2011 was a trying year. So there I was, weak, drugged, hysterical and doing my best to make her take those dreaded words back. Eventually, with lots of prayer, support of dear friends and the strong bond of our family, I was able to find strength for that season.
Gradually, the grip of fear released and I started speaking words of faith.
I stopped allowing the enemy to plant just any old thought in my brain about Mom’s diagnosis. I began fighting back with the word of God and started declaring Mom was healed… even when it looked like the worst would happen.
It was a tough fight. Really rough. Mom got several infections and suffered through multiple complications.
There were even a few times when her team of specialists didn’t know what to do. They had no answers for us.
We wanted them so desperately.
But even though the professionals could not give us the assurances we desired, I focused on the assurance that God is faithful and able. The more I focused on Him and trusted in His power to deliver, the less apprehensive I felt about Mom’s prognosis.
It is human nature to be frightened by what we cannot apprehend or comprehend. That is why we grapple and wrestle so intensely with that “spirit of fear” during seasons of wading through the waters of the unknown.
Walking through the wilderness draped in a veil of nebulous uncertainty is terrifying.
It just is.
No matter what we are uncertain about, not knowing feels awful. Something deep within longs for assurance and clarity. We want to know the how, when and why of it all. And when God’s plan is not revealed fast enough, our flesh tends to panic. We forget all about the whole living by faith thing, just as I did in the beginning.
It comes naturally to freak out and get sucked into what we see, which is totally inconsistent with the word of God.
Friend, don’t put yourself through the torment of allowing doubt and fear to guide your responses. I have previously made that mistake in my life and it causes all kinds of anxiety, stress, tension and misery.
Getting all worked up accomplishes nothing.
So if you’re facing uncertain times in your life, rebuke fear and worry. It’s not worth the emotional strain.
Take it from me. Trust God.
While I cannot promise a smooth ride, I can assure you that, in the end, God will cause all things to work together for your good.
Cling to hope. Don’t hop off the “faith train” because the direction the tracks are going is unclear.
Believe through it. Things will work out.
To help you resist fear, internalize these words found in Isaiah 41:10 NIV, which reads, “So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.”
As you drink down the contents of your cup, despite your desire to know details, you will be empowered to be content with the verifiable facts you do have in the midst of uncertain and inconvenient times.
God is with you. He will strengthen you. He will help you. He is faithful. He is for you. He has a plan. You just have to trust Him. Now let’s pray.